Broken Life

Yeah They try to tell me to fit in so I can feel the love They tell me happiness is found once I feel the buzz Maybe that works for you but that don't work for me I won't suppress the pain by turning to drugs Except for maybe caffeine cause I don't get any sleep Cause all my problems on a playlist that be stuck on repeat My mind's moving at the speed of light Joe what does that mean? It means I love to overthink about everything Man I'm scared of being judged for all my bad decisions Like I'm scared to be alone but I choose lonely living I'm scared that I won't flourish in this life I'm given I pray to God that I can help the world with lyrics I've written I know that I feel like an outcast, someone that's different I don't blackout on the weekends, you could say that I'm driven People say they want success but it's only in wishes When I say I want success I'll hunt and conquer my mission, yeah That's just broken life living Everyday always be counting the minutes The clock's ticking, better get in position Life is about to push you to your limits Do you know your worth? Or is that a stone that is yet to be turned Life is gonna knock you down every chance it gets Take the hits and then use them to learn, yeah Broken life living You'll find success after years never winning You're gonna show that young kid that you were That you can come back even in the ninth inning You're gonna make a difference in lives But you'll sacrifice everything for it You're gonna live out your dream life But lose yourself in the same moment, yeah Everybody thinks my life's so glamorous Just go take a walk in my shoes You're gonna see a lot of nice things But looking in the mirror you ain't gonna see you I had to wear a mask for a while and Once it came off it was hard to take two I've been making mistakes, I hate Trying fit in, when I simply want the me that I knew But I'm lost on a road that goes straight And all I ever do is complain I act like I'm down when the suns out shining on me But happy when I'm stuck standing in rain I don't know if subconsciously I know that I'll change If I hit rock bottom six ft in the terrain Growth is only found when life ain't going your way But once you rise you can bury all the pain in your grave and Maybe this is part of God's plan I don't know I just wish that I was living with my mind intact Got my nose in the right book, right chapter But the words I can just never dissect I like a clean room but I'll trash it and leave it in shambles To show myself my life is a mess It's crazy you could own everything that you've ever wanted But can still fall asleep feeling depressed, yeah That's just broken life living Everyday always be counting the minutes The clock's ticking, better get in position Life is about to push you to your limits Do you know your worth? Or is that a stone that is yet to be turned Life is gonna knock you down every chance it gets Take the hits and then use them to learn, yeah Broken life living You'll find success after years never winning You're gonna show that young kid that you were That you can come back even in the 9th inning You're gonna make a difference in lives But you'll sacrifice everything for it You're gonna live out your dream life But lose yourself in the same moment, yeah