Drifting Away

I've been drifting away All of my thoughts have decayed And now, it's only me holding me down I've been drifting away I went and hid all the pain And now it's only me holding me down Yeah, I've been so alone Craving social living but I'm chilling at my home Feeling 2 but out of 10 and still be putting on a show Trying to muscle through it, take a dub like I'm Mahomes But I've been losing all my thoughts that I can never replace Always sober but today I'm feeling numb in the face Honestly I'm living free though, kinda hard to complain But in the end I'm still unsure if I be doing okay Cause my stay inside the hotel of happy expired I'm only allowed in the room between like 7:00 and 9:00 But after 9:00 p.m. the key card always flashes declined And I can't return until the sun is back in the sky So I sit outside the door and pray that I will be fine Cause if I lay awake too long my thoughts will eat me alive All the pain will reappear if I just close up my eyes It happens every single night so I ain't even surprised That I'm feeling like I've been drifting away All of my thoughts have decayed And now, it's only me holding me down I've been drifting away I went and hid all the pain And now it's only me holding me down Yeah, running from the pain Running from the devil that's been chilling in my brain Running from the lows Even running from the highs Running to escape any anomaly's I Tried running from the light Now I'm running from the dark Running from the flood Trying to get the aboard the arc Never asking for the help Trying to act like I'm a shark But I'm drowning in my fears That someday I'ma fall apart cause now Every time that I glance at the clock No matter what time it reads it never feels like enough I see signs telling me there's one spot left in the lot So I'm circling the pavement trying to pinpoint the spot But of course, someone enters and pulls into the space While I'm on the other end and unaware of my fate So here I am still driving with my foot on the brakes Looking for a spot that isn't even open to take, that's My life right now, in the moment Looking for a door that ain't even open, no Feeling like I'm the opponent To myself cause I'm adrift in the open, now No life vest in the ocean No thoughts in my head I'm floating wow Only myself that can hold me down It got me feeling like I've been drifting away All of my thoughts have decayed And now, it's only me holding me down I've been drifting away I went and hid all the pain And now it's only me holding me down I've been drifting away All of my thoughts have decayed And now, it's only me holding me down I've been drifting away I went and hid all the pain And now it's only me holding me down