Fadeout

I'm anxious, waiting only for the fadeout Can't sleep I don't know how it's gonna play out If I had it in me I would try I would be doing it, doing right by now But my mouth is shut (Mhh) I'm dizzy getting myself off the bed now And if I'm honest I could really use a hand I pray this is the worst it's gonna get And I'll be doing, oh, doing just fine If I make it out (Mhh) Spin me round I'm drowning inside my body Talk me down Nobody sees what I see I'm busy working on my mental health now If I'm not perfect I can only let myself down They said that I'd be better in a year Just need to wait it out, wait it out But I've lost my mind (Mhh) Spin me round I'm drowning inside my body Talk me down Nobody sees what I see I can't take it I can't fake it I can't strip myself down I'm underwhelmed when I'm alone And overwhelmed when I'm not These walls around me have me cornered Frozen right on the spot Hate all this shit that I bought Want all the things that I'm not Seems I can't help but analyze All of this pain that I got Are these fears even my own? Why am I stuck in these thoughts? I'm spitting fire In denial Guess I've lost the plot Can't control my own mind I try to leave me behind I'm anxious, waiting only for the fadeout Can't sleep I don't know how it's gonna play out If I had it in me I would try I would be doing it, doing right by now