Someone, Please Come Help (sped up)

Please, come help It started with me, with sixteen When no one thought anything It was all for fun (and also fun) But the fun's become Pains, a lot of heartbreak Too much giving, no taste Sleepless nights and fake goodbyes If I'm being honest It's not what I thought it would be Giving my life and learning my vices Spending my nights with Something I know that kills me It's not how I thought it would feel Numbing my days and throwing away Everything I could be I know what I'm doing, I know I should stop the pain Bury the pain, block out the shame, and do it again I look in the mirror, wipe a few tears, I hate who I am 'Cause I can't give it up, no, I can't get enough I can't stop myself, someone, please, come help Here I am at 23 This isn't who I'm supposed to be I've lost control (lost control) And no one knows I'm so out of touch with reality I thought that these things would help me My world's been broke I can't let go, if I'm being honest It's not what I thought it would be Giving my life and learning my vices Spending my nights with Something I know that kills me It's not how I thought it would feel Numbing my days and throwing away Everything I could be I know what I'm doing, I know I should stop the pain Bury the pain, block out the shame, and do it again I look in the mirror, wipe a few tears, I hate who I am 'Cause I can't give it up, no, I can't get enough I can't stop myself, someone, please, come help For a moment, I see the hell I've caused And all the people I hurt before I disregard My better judgement, dammit, I can't help it Only one more time, I swear this is the last time that I Bury the pain, block out the shame, and do it again I look in the mirror, wipe a few tears, I hate who I am 'Cause I can't give it up, no, I can't get enough I can't stop myself, someone, please, come help