I'M SORRY

Remember the first time that I saw you? Staying at a hostel playing a contra show You almost nearly left with my brother Looking for Mary Jane but we joked that it wasn't so Remember the first song that I sent you? The day after we met for island fires and family I hand-bound that book that I showed you I'll send it if I find it Please don't send it back to me I'm sorry that I let you down I'm sorry that I couldn't hold it together I'm sorry that I let you go It feels like such a shame After all that we weathered I'm sorry that I let you down But you said it yourself We just don't kiss the same ways I'm sorry that I let you go I'm hoping time can heal Everything that it hasn't changed I started putting stuff into boxes I stopped because in trying It made me want to throw up I've realised in the ways that you left here You planned on coming back No matter what the cost was I don't think in the end it made a difference There's times I got distracted Body over the soul A woman makes a home and that's the difference I'm crying on a couch feeling truly alone I'm sorry that I let you down I'm sorry that I couldn't hold it together I'm sorry that I let you go It feels like such a shame After all that we weathered I'm sorry that I let you down But you said it yourself We just don't kiss the same ways I'm sorry that I let you go I'm hoping time can heal Everything that it hasn't changed I hope one day I'll see you When the border wars are over Can we get some form of closure? How we've come undone I'm guarded in what I say and I do But there's no doubt I love or I'm missing you We were best friends you know that it was true Couldn't sleep at night Knowing it wasn't right I'm sorry that I let you down I'm sorry that I couldn't hold it together I'm sorry that I let you go It feels like such a shame After all that we weathered I'm sorry that I let you down You said it yourself We just don't kiss the same ways And I'm sorry that I let you go I'm hoping time can heal Everything that it hasn't changed I'm sorry that I let you down I'm sorry that I let you So so sorry I let you I'm sorry that I let you down