Millions of Heartbeats

I've been feeling a little bit different, a little bit strange There's this numbness inside of me Things aren't hitting in quite the same way I look for inspiration At night my heart beats so fast I get palpitations You know I've got total devotion But the spark is lit at such a low flame There are no guarantees What are my boundaries How do I protect myself? Time no longer makes sense Can't relate to my friends There has to be something else Everyone is trying, trying so hard, well maybe Maybe you could try a little bit too Everything hurts, yeah it hurts so much I eat my dinner in the toilets at lunch I just want to believe, is that feeling still inside me? The sun has gone and so must I Do you think we'll know each other when we die? The sky is grey and I'm blue Have I told you that I love you? I guess what I'm asking Is am I a number or am I a person? I want a simple answer But I'm simply given another diversion You're working from the inside But now you find yourself in the building They say I'm only human Well isn't that the problem? Everyone is trying, trying so hard, well maybe Maybe you should try a little bit too Everything you feel can just come undone And the media supports all the far right scum I just want to believe but the feelings not inside me The sun has gone and so must I Do you think we'll know each other when we die? The sky is grey and I'm blue Have I told you that I love you? Come outside look up with me The moon is full and bright tonight All the stars laid out like they're watching us Wish they could send help But for now all we have in millions Millions of light-years is millions and millions of heartbeats And I think it's worth holding on for, well don't you oh? I guess we have to try