Not to Strong Anymore

I don't wanna love again

Cause I'm holding on to things that are gone

I don't wanna change again

Cause I'm scared that I might come up wrong

But I'm not to strong anymore

And I can't hold on

I'm not to strong anymore

So please just let me go

When I was a kid I used to love everything

Then I got grown and hate clouded my dreams

My son doesn't say it, but I know he's begging me

To love him how I wish my dad would've showed loved for me

Now I'm clouded by hate cause I don't know how to love

Growing up in the 90s I was taught to be tough

Now in the 2020s it's only brought me bad luck

Cause now everybody hates me and I don't give a fuck

I know throughout my life I've broken a lot of hearts

But how do you love when your life has been lived in the dark

I've been through hell and back and got my soul ripped apart

Anytime I was in love, the devil was in charge

And anytime I felt alone, I learned how to let my presence discharge

One day ima regret not knowing how to love from afar

When I replay my songs that are memoirs of a life that's gone

I don't wanna love again

Cause I'm holding on to things that are gone

I don't wanna change again

Cause I'm scared that I might come up wrong

But I'm not to strong anymore

And I can't hold on

I'm not to strong anymore

So please just let me go

When I was around seven

I used to go to sleep with a picture of my parents

I had just learned about death and how it was unpleasant

I was afraid death would catch em in their sleep

Take them to heaven

Little did I know I was just begging to feel some type of loving

But then I grew older and death got a little closer

Suicidal thoughts became my composer

Cause I didn't feel love, I felt like a push over

And I never killed myself, so now I suffer from bipolar

I'm just a sober middle aged man looking for a new life make over

Love is overrated cause it's always left me frustrated

When I die don't bury me, I want my bones to be cremated

This planet never did shit for me, so why should I be donated

Fuck being loved since I've always felt like I was hated

I don't wanna love again

Cause I'm holding on to things that are gone

I don't wanna change again

Cause I'm scared that I might come up wrong

But I'm not to strong anymore

And I can't hold on

I'm not to strong anymore

So please just let me go