My Eulogy

Sitting in the shade

A glass of lemonade

Don't care about my problems

All that bullshit fades away

Sitting in the shade

A glass of lemonade

Don't care about my problems

All that bullshit fades away

Sitting in the shade

A glass of lemonade

Don't care about my problems

All that bullshit fades away

Sitting in the shade

A glass of lemonade

Don't care about my problems

All that bullshit fades away

Last night I wrote my eulogy

Realized I never got to be mentally free

Worried about other peoples problems

Never thought about me

Half of my life was filled with anxiety

The other half was pretending to be a fake me

Only a few got to see the real Joey

I did a lot of bad shit, I hope the devil doesn't take me

Thank you god for giving me my family

I hope he lets my kids mourn peacefully

Sometimes I thought you were dead to me

Cause all I ever knew was misery

Always felt like you never did shit for me

But I'm a grown man now and I understand life

We go through the dark to live in the light

All my life I had to fight myself to be alright

Never went to no psych

-iatrist, so all I did was write

About how I was misunderstood and hated my life

Thank you Tupac for giving me new life

When I was a kid and had no one to talk to at night

You didn't know me, but understood my strife

Saved me from cutting myself with a knife

At times I wanted to fly away past the satellites

Disappear into space turn into a starlight

And now I'm grown and still feel alone

Can't find my way home, Joe is so unknown

I keep to my own, I'm always out of zone

Don't call my phone, my soul is gone

Thank you triple X tentacion

Your music helped me fight my demons

You didn't know, but you helped postpone

Me putting 2 shots in my dome

Turn my skull into an empty stone

I guess this is the part where I say goodbye

I've been wanted to die

So when you see me laid out, don't start to cry

Just know Im alright, hopefully with Christ

Dressed all in white, like my wedding night

With all my brothers who lost their life

My mental is finally filled with delight

No more stress or feeling uptight

No more eternal fights wit the demons in my mind

I've tried for years to find peace at night

Cause that's when the demons come alive

And make me try to end my life

At times I feel low, with no where to go

But I know if I stay strong I'll learn how to grow

Hopefully get old, see my kids leave home

Hope God hear's this song

Cause it's the last one from JRPOLL