Monster

I hold your mistakes high over your head Especially when they look like mine I'm not one to hand out my forgiveness But I expect it every time It's just me and the accusations you made It pains me to admit you were right Someday I will be someone you resent Honey, the pleasure is all mine Well, I heard you're calling me a traitor Owe you a good apology, I'll do it later Wrote all my stories and I paint myself the good guy This is the end of my tunnel, it's a gaslight Yeah, I heard you're calling me a monster After all the shit I pulled, you could do better Heart of gold, will I fold for a good time? I'll do what I want, what I want over what's right You gave me your all It was intimate I guess it ain't your fault That I can't commit Yeah, you talk till you scream, I never listen I couldn't help but feel so indifferent Yeah, all my failures are visceral I still taste blood from years ago Push and shove til you're giving up Just to prove you ain't good enough Shoot my meanest words like arrows I make damn sure they echo I make damn sure they echo Well, I heard you're calling me a traitor Owe you a good apology, I'll do it later Wrote all my stories and I paint myself the good guy This is the end of my tunnel, it's a gaslight Yeah, I heard you're calling me a monster After all the shit I pulled, you could do better Heart of gold, will I fold for a good time? I'll do what I want, what I want over what's right I can't even be honest with myself How could you believe I'd do that for someone else? Lying out of my teeth and it sounds so nice You're down on your knee, but I don't want that life You're waiting for me at the back of the bar While I'm kissing boys in the back of their cars It's half past 3 and you're fast asleep While I'm on the phone with Jodie Will I ever know why I am like this? I go for what I can't have like I'm righteous I'm pointing all of my fingers, can't face the shame If you wanna place blame, just say my name I go home alone and I think it's strange I got what I want but it don't taste the same Now the only ones who know me are my felonies, tellin me Everyone who's ever loved me is the enemy I get high on all the jealousy You can't forgive the infidelity And I can't take it back and i don't wanna be Someone who lives like that in this economy When I was supposed to be a good friend, trusted I snuck around with the love of your life instead Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah Well, I heard you're calling me a traitor Owe you a good apology, I'll do it later Wrote all my stories and I paint myself the good guy This is the end of my tunnel, it's a gaslight Yeah, I heard you're calling me a monster After all the shit I pulled, you should do better Heart of gold, but I fold for a good time I'll do what I want, what I want over what's right I'll do what I want, what I want over what's right I'll do what I want, what I want over what's right (you should do better) I'll do what I want, what I want over what's right (you should do better) I'll do what I want, what I want over what's right I'll do what I want, what I want over what's right I'll do what I want, what I want over what's right I'll do what I want, what I want over what's right Do what I want, what I want over what's right