Delirium

Im deleting memories Running away Running away from everything I've been burning bridges Dividing myself Carrying me into delirium So it starts once again Another day meant Meant to be fulfilled with broken words empty lies Im sharing these thoughts Towards the one who looks at me with pale eyes Who looks at me the same way my whole life When the clock hits midnight All these scars on my body are not enough to hold me Hunting all the feelings Long forgotten and buried deep within myself Im deleting memories Running away Running away from everything I've been burning bridges Dividing myself Carrying me into delirium I wish somebody could hold me And somebody would just show me How to show appreciation Without all deception How to be the one Ive wanted Not to be the one who caused this Im screaming out for love While my heart is numb Closing of my broken self I can see all lights filling the world like fireflies None of them meant to be mine And still I'm moving forward Onwards away from the rays Cause i will never know the grace To be accepted as I am Still I'm moving forward Im deleting memories Running away Running away from everything I've been burning bridges Dividing myself Carrying me into delirium And I can see it now Those lights were always Near my heart and changing lives Forgotten ive awoken I wish i could be the one who shines I wish I could be the one who shines upon these darkened lives Upon those shimmering fading lights I will stand above those lies Took some time to realize That i can change my course of life