I should hate you

Last night I spiraled alone in the kitchen

Making pretend that the furniture listened

Wasn't the best of my mental conditions

But I tried

Thinking of you without any forgiveness

Because I was the one who would stay up and call you

And I'd drive to your house for the shit that you went through

Then I wasted my breath when I tried to console you

Didn't I?

'Cause we didn't happen the way we were supposed to

I know that I should hate you

I know that I should hate you

Pulled the knife out my back, it was right where you left it

But you aimed kinda perfect, I'll give you the credit

I just drank something strong to try to forget, but

It wasn't right

No, you're not even here, but you're doing my head in

I know that I should hate you

I know that I should hate you

I know that I should hate you

Ooh, ooh

I should hate you, I feel stupid

Like I almost crashed my car

Driving home to talk about you

At my table in the dark

All I ever think about is

Where the hell you even are

And I swear to god I'd kill you

If I loved you less hard

After all of this time I still get disappointed

Bet you're doing all right, and you don't even know it

How it's all 'cause of you that my standards are broken

In my mind

I would bend back to you if you left the door open

I know that I should hate you

I know that I should hate you

I know that I should hate you

Ooh, ooh

I know that I should hate you

I know that I should hate you

I know that I should hate you

Ooh, ooh