I'm Sorry

Yeah, lust isn't love when we want it to be I guess that's what I've learned You said your sorries, here's my turn Yeah, too long for me to say these words Two hours every weekend when I drove to your house Spending all our day with your dog on the couch Falling for you when I don't know what I'm about Two lonely kids said they figured it out It wasn't real, though our feelings were You love me more, I hurt you more You like to drink so your feelings pour I treated you like I do a storm I stayed in while your tears pour I ran away when the wind blew You tried to fix everything we went through All I ever did was change, you blame me, I don't blame you Closer to God, the more distant I felt Ocean of love turned to a mountain of guilt I hate the way that I dealt with you and myself All the hours saving us, I wasn't, I couldn't tell 'Cause all you ever did was listen I disregarded what you felt and thought You were scared to tell me anything All we ever did was fought But you gave me your heart And I couldn't hand it back Gave me a chance, but I couldn't make it last Left you my things 'cause I couldn't go back And feel everything I coulda had I was in a dark place, I ain't blaming anybody else I could never be the man that you want me to be When I did, I lost everything else, so I'm sorry I'm sorry for everything I put you through I'm sorry for the things that I said to you I'm sorry for the way that I am to you I'm sorry I'm sorry 'cause I know that I let you down I'm sorry 'cause I know I won't be around I'm sorry for everything I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry Who knows where the wind blows? Who knows where the pain goes? How does someone know your soul Then you wonder where they went While you're looking out the window? Best friends with strangers Were they even friends at all? Turn a new leaf in the fall, so they leave me to fall See em' change like leaves in the fall, yeah Is anything real at all? Looking at the mirror, red eyes, God, I need a call Tell me that You're here, I wonder if I'm even me at all Lately, I don't feel it It ain't real 'til you know it's gone I just hate how we left things So I owe you this letter that I wrote Only two ways a love dies It blows up or it fades slow (I'm sorry) There's a knot in my chest and it won't untie No matter what, I'm always there Another one of my lies Boxes of promises all on the side I'm not there 'cause I know you're doing better I'm not there 'cause I know it hurts I'm not there 'cause of all of this I'm not there 'cause I make you worse I'm sorry I'm sorry for everything I put you through I'm sorry for the things that I said to you I'm sorry for the way that I am to you I'm sorry I'm sorry 'cause I know that I let you down I'm sorry 'cause I know I won't be around I'm sorry for everything