Find My Way

I know I always run from everything I love It's 'cause I feel like I won't ever be enough Maybe that's why I been pushin' you away I wanna see if I matter enough for you to stay I know it's selfish, and it's not the way that it should be But I just like to know that someone's out there missing me All my exes will tell you there ain't no fixing me And that I'll become somebody that you wish you didn't meet The love we have, I know you wish it dead But you don't know how to kill it, so it lives instead I have ways of getting in your head So it doesn't matter what I do 'cause you'll forgive me in the end But I'm trying to change, and it's kind of strange But I hope you're still around when I find my way And you're gonna see, it won't be suddenly But I've been trying day and night, and that's enough for me But I'm trying to change, and it's kind of strange But I hope you're still around when I find my way And you're gonna see, it won't be suddenly But I've been trying day and night, and that's enough for me I just want to let you know I cried tonight Like, "how have I been like this my entire life?" But if you grew up with my dad, then you were taught to run Crazy because he's the one I've been trying to not become How the fuck did I become my parents? I look back at the shit I did to you, and I'm embarrassed But it's something that growing up I witnessed on the daily So now it doesn't phase me, 'cause I thought it was normal to be crazy I'm sorry for what I did that night I'm even more sorry it took this long to know that That shit isn't right 'cause you and I were bound to marry I gotta let go of my past And that's something I don't know how to bury But I'm trying to change, and it's kind of strange But I hope you're still around when I find my way And you're gonna see, it won't be suddenly But I've been trying day and night, and that's enough for me But I'm trying to change, and it's kind of strange But I hope you're still around when I find my way And you're gonna see, it won't be suddenly But I've been trying day and night, and that's enough for me