We Die Too

"Help me, my brother's dead" "What's your name?" "Nicki" "What do you mean by your brother's dead?" "He killed himself!" "How did he do it?" "With a gun!" "Okay, are you home alone?" "I'm home alone with my sister!" "Okay" "Get someone here quick!" "Did you find him, Nicki?" "Yeah, now he's dead!" You've been through some shit, through some shit Hold on tight, don't lose your shit You're just like me, I'ma prove that shit Got a noose tied tight, better loosen it Haven't slept all night, hallucinatin' Forty hours, mind is fadin' Heart is racin', grip your chest Contemplate, about your death Nobody but you, got you Fuck everybody around you They just doubt you Maybe you think they'd be better off without you Think your life don't mean shit Fuck it, what's the reason? Wish I wasn't breathin' All I do is resent, anything and everything to do with me I'm through with me, I pop the bottle Swear to God, I'm 'bout to swallow every dream Godspeed, give a fuck, about me Don't try to surround me with your positivity I'm happy with my misery Just wanna watch my wrist bleed Nobody would miss me Pop some shells, look down the barrel, this is it I'm feelin' it, I'm feelin' sick I hope my family understands I'm sorry, this is really it I'm sorry, this is really it "Nicki, stay on the phone with me, hun, okay?" Woo-ho-ho, hu-hu-hu-hu, hehehe Gunshot, middle of the front yard Girlfriend found the body searchin' Questions, always lurkin'; answers, never comin' Sick inside her stomach Empty, feelin' nothin' She forgot what love is All black, life off track Got no will to live, lost that She just wants him brought back home again She'll never get over it Or ever learn to cope with it No savin' her, she's over it No savin' her, it's over I've had some friends do the same shit Left me here just blamin' myself; said they never got help Bitch, I was right here All I do is fight tears Look at me! Now you're dead at six feet Suicide on fifth street Fuckin' pussy, left a mother and a kid Wonderin' what daddy did Daddy's in a better place Said, they had to hide the face I just had to drive away Fuck, your funeral I'm leavin' you just like you left me too I'm sick of losing you