Nothing Left At All

I stayed up late patiently waitin' Wishin' you could call Dreamin' of memories lost in time Knowin' they're all gone So I take this bottle and drown my sorrows And throw it against the wall The higher you fly The harder you fall 'Til there's nothin' left at all Four in the morning, I cannot sleep I am depressed, sitting up in my bed My demons are roarin', they're botherin' me I'm sitting here with a gun to my head Finger on trigger, what if I squeezed? Does that mean that my problems will leave? Get rid of what's botherin' me? Does that mean that I'm finally free? I think of my daughter, I think of my wife I think of my brothers, I think of my life Can't leave 'em with bad news My life is a crap-shoot I'm just shakin' the dice Had a dream last night (had a dream last night) I could hear you say (I could hear you say) Son, just be strong (son, just be strong) You gon' be okay (you gon' be okay) Tell the truth, I don't feel that way I still feel fucked up to this day Even when I'm high, I just sit and cry And wonder why I still feel this pain I wish Heaven wasn't so far away I wish I could visit just for a day I still had so much left to say Bow our heads, let us pray Stayed up late patiently waitin' Wishin' you could call Dreamin' of memories lost in time Knowing they're all gone So I take this bottle and drown my sorrows And throw it against the wall The higher you fly The harder you fall 'Til there's nothin' left at all I feel like my past won't allow me to grow Feel like this liquor is drownin' my soul Why am I spiraling out of control? I cannot get myself out of this hole I keep tryin', I keep crawlin' The sound of silence, I hear it callin' I was flyin', now I'm fallin' My health declinin', I'm an alcoholic There's no one else, it's just myself Alone in thought, I stand and dwell I'm the go-to guy, so who do I Go to when I need some help? No one gives a fuck about me, I'm on my own If misery loves company then why am I alone? I pour another drink just to get in my zone I swear that I'ma change, but I know that I won't Let me face the facts (face the facts) Wish I could take it back (take it back) Wish I could fade to black (fade to black) Wish I could change the past (wish I could change the past) But in my mind I wish that I could rewind Press pause, and live my life inside a moment of time But I can't Stayed up late patiently waitin' Wishin' you could call Dreamin' of memories lost in time Knowin' they're all gone So I take this bottle and drown my sorrows And throw it against the wall The higher you fly The harder you fall 'Til there's nothin' left at all 'Til there's nothin' left at all