Won't Be Me

Worry more, love myself less Press eject, forget the reset Never hit the rewind, finish it On the floor with my old VHS Like a tape you can play me Put me in when you're lonely Pressure building up 'til my ears ring I've still been reaching for the kitchen sink That sinking feeling tied my hands and both my feet Had to cut the rope, been forgetting how to breath And now I'm giving up again Another eighty milligrams Between the medicine my therapist prescribes The angst in my veins and the late night drives No one seems to recognize the pain in my eyes It's like the chemicals that keep life stable gave up on me It's not my fault that I don't understand what makes you happy 'Cause how can I know fulfillment when I have never felt it So don't ask me what you need 'Cause I know it won't be me Like a fish tank, my head swims Ibuprofen for the bed spins Death is looking in with an evil grin Grinning, turning into gram macing That evil smile got me feeling paranoid Had me running scared ever since I was a boy Now he's coming out again Yeah, that's who I really am Between the thoughts tucked up in my hollow brain The ink in my skin and the scars on my leg My life has been rearranged My disposition changed It's like the chemicals that keep life stable gave up on me It's not my fault that I don't understand what makes you happy 'Cause how can I know fulfillment when I have never felt it So don't ask me what you need 'Cause I know it won't be me Yeah, I know it won't be me It's like the chemicals that keep life stable gave up on me It's not my fault that I don't understand what makes you happy 'Cause how can I know fulfillment when I have never felt it So don't ask me what you need 'Cause I know it won't be me That evil smile got me feeling paranoid Had me running scared ever since I was a boy Now he's coming out again Yeah, that's who I really am Between the thoughts tucked up in my hollow brain The ink in my skin and the scars on my leg My life has been rearranged My disposition changed