Imagination

It's all for nothing Everything I've done Drowning under water Thinking, what have I become? I can't feel a thing Fuck, I think I'm going numb Maybe I'm insane I'm just not enough Crying out for help, but this isn't an act I been broken, I feel hopeless Damn it, this is a fact It's like why you think I always spit my pain these tracks Because I'm running from myself I write this shit to relax Maybe I was made in somebody's imagination Listen, you don't know me, you're not in my situation There's things going on here, they need examination And nobody but me will ever know that information I lost certain things that will never be restored Everybody leaves me, my life's an open door It saddens me to say this But when it rains, it pours How do I survive in the eye of the storm? How can love exist, if there's no one that expresses it Everybody's hurting, look around you for the evidence Suicide is something that's becoming too repetitive Do I got the will to keep on going? That's a negative I'm so understanding, I see life from different angles But these people all around me love to give everyone labels As if they themselves are angels Picture perfect, wearing halos Hypocritical and ignorant, until you turn the tables on em' Fuck em' all, I never wanna fit in with em' Fuck that, I just want a break for a second Where the drugs at? I don't feel a thing when I'm faded, and I love that I forget it all when I'm gone, and I love that Yeah Under such a dark sky, I'm standing by a payphone Examining my fears, cause' I know I gotta face those Everyone's a fraud, cause' they pick and choose what they show I do what I want Instead of doing what they say so Turning into nothingness, I'm stuck in zero gravity Lately my life alter my perception of reality I wonder if somebody way above is just imagine me My mind is playing games, and my story is a tragedy I speak for those who can't, I've been playing devil's advocate I never wanted anything, I think I'm here on accident I try to stop the bleeding And I try to be compassionate But you can't understand me unless you know about abandonment It's D.R.B. for short Motherfucker that's the acronym I never been good enough I'm bad and I'm inadequate They see me as a villain Like I'm some sort of antagonist I got a black heart, and plus my energy is cancerous I went from bad to worse And damn the damage hurts I'm in a sea of flames With every wave it bursts I'm a burden to myself And I got so many concerned I thought I could be happy But I guess I'll never learn