when the hospital was my home

Feel the wind blow, I can hear it in my left ear Sounds like when you whispered to me, but you're not around here Life is slow, sleepin' 12 hours a day, ay Since I had my surgery, it's never been the same I'm sick and it sucks, and my friends barely visit Every week that goes by, end up feelin' more distant Cried so many times, tryna chip away my fear Prayin' when I'm sad, thinkin' of our younger years First night that you kissed me, cuddle watchin' Disney Now I wait at night for a text that you miss me Every second is a blessing when you're standing at my side We didn't see this coming, it's okay to say goodbye It's okay to say goodbye But I hate saying goodbyes Would you stay here longer? Sorry I'm not stronger Speak to me with honesty, it's harder than we thought it'd be Tell it to me straight, ayy, I don't want no probablys Tell me when you're tired 'cause I'm gettin' tired too The rain is feelin' heavy and the sky isn't so blue Pills for my breakfast, promisin' it'll heal me Hangin' out with doctors and starin' at the ceiling My favorite days are Mondays when you come and see me Wish you would stay longer, but I know it's not easy Yeah, I was excited for that concert Tell me all about it, did they sign your new Converse? I don't wanna let go when we hug One thing worse than dying is losing who you love It's okay to say goodbye But I hate saying goodbyes Would you stay here longer? Sorry I'm not stronger Noticed all the pain that you had to deal with Was sick of all the doctors lyin', sayin' that you'd heal quick It's been a couple days since you left us in that hearse Your girl just called me said she's pregnant and that would've been my first So shocked when she told me Why didn't she tell you? She thought you'd leave the world thinkin' your promises have fell through You always talked about how you were ready for a son Now you'll be watchin' over him, free of pain Hope that one day he'll look up and feel your love When I get to heaven, I will wait for you Sorry for the things that I put you through You had to watch me flatline, wishin' that we had time