Last Cell

To my daughter I'll leave behind I can't stop what's metastasized You're the light in my decline You're the one thing I've done right All my days have become numbered And I have become numb to it Spite flooded veins, paranoid the pulse has lost me My purpose has become nil, my cells multiply against my will I'm sorry I won't be there For your first steps, when you're falling 'Til you walk down the aisle Standing tall in a white dress I know life isn't fair When it's time and Heaven's calling We leave love behind You were my reason to fight My reason to fight If this body is a temple Then my walls were built on sand There's cracks in all my windows The foundation is condemned But it's weathered many storms I can't take one more I'm sorry I won't be there For your first steps, when you're falling 'Til you walk down the aisle Standing tall in a white dress I know life isn't fair When it's time and Heaven's calling We leave love behind You were my reason to fight I never thought this would all end at 29 There's a conflict in my soul, a system failure of my life No, I'll never get enough and you should never watch me die But that's just how this one goes Think of me, think of me and close your eyes Think of me and close your eyes Think of me and close your eyes Think of me and close your eyes Think of me and close your eyes Think of me and close your eyes I'm sorry for the things I couldn't help For all the times you'll walk through hell For the cancer tearing my spirit out When your world comes crashing down I'm sorry for this fleeting farewell Despite all the fear I felt, I loved you down to every last cell Don't let your light run into the shadows