Counting Sheep Fly

I hold my head high while I cry Into my pillowcase that's dry The tears help me fight off the night While I just lay there lost in my mind Counting sheep fly In my closed eyes Am I alright Am I alright Kinda feeling like I'm locked up Tied down and drugged up Trying not to give up Light glares and syrup Green pills and handcuffs Not sure what I'm scared of I scream help but it's not loud I try to leave and they're not proud Roll me back with my hands bound Locked up like a damn hound Can't make a sound that they allow Feels like a jail now I hold my head high while I cry Into my pillowcase that's dry The tears help me fight off the night While I just lay there lost in my mind Counting sheep fly In my closed eyes Am I alright I keep starring at them through my eyelids Move around me while I'm like this, lifeless I tried to confide and call for your help but you denied it So all alone I tried to fight it Now my soul and my body are divided Finally, they don't have to fight for my silence Are you happy now I'm silent I'm just a brain dead body An empty hotel lobby My pride was oh too costly But I never hurt anybody And I'll take that to the grave To the day I pass of age Or to the day I pass away By someone who won't admit that they're to blame I hold my head high while I cry Into my pillowcase that's dry The tears help me fight off the night While I just lay there