i'm not alright

And I've been looking at these photos, tryna figure out Where that light went, how long I've been without And all I know is that we saved that hurt And it takes so much strength just to say those words, yeah I got these old mixtapes with all these songs on 'em I made for you, but you never really listen And now I wish these days, we never stopped talking Yeah, I guess it's been a minute But I'm looking around and everyone here is bringing me down Like we used to have a voice but it got drowned out And all of my friends we used to dream about money and a career But now the fear has got me freaking on my birthday every year And I've been feeling like the time is wasting on my mind I'm wearing this disguise like, "Everything is fine" but All of y'all don't know nothin' about me And I don't know how long this story goes But you don't like this story anyway So I'll just leave this CD on your doorstep Another chorus that you'll just get bored with And for once you might have shit to say But I'll stop you anyway Mom drinks too much, that still don't change I'm too far gone, I can't be saved And all these pills that I take just make me sick This life been hitting me in waves but Maybe I'll just swim against the current And I keep falling for the ones who wanna hurt me I used to think I wanna grow up so quick, 'til I got here And the walls caved in, now everything's so blurry And I'm feeling like the days, are wasting me away And everyone keeps telling me that I'ma be okay, but All of y'all don't know nothin' about me And I don't know how long this story goes But you don't like this story anyway So I'll just leave this CD on your doorstep Another chorus that you'll just get bored with And for once you might have shit to say But I'll stop you anyway I'm not okay and that's okay with me I'm not alright, I never claimed to be I'm not okay and that's okay with me I'm not alright, I never claimed to be And I don't know how long this story goes But you don't like this story anyway So I'll just leave this CD on your doorstep Another chorus that you'll just get bored with And for once, you might have shit to say But I'll stop you anyway