Severing

I was always searching Searching for excuses just to disguise the truth Blaming others for my shit was all that I could do I was always playing the victim Instead of looking in the goddamn mirror That shit's on me, that shit's on me Why do we prolong the inevitable Why do we tell ourselves that nothing's wrong Too many times I said I was just fine Too many times I said I was just fine Contrary to my mind You can see it on my face I'm not alright You can see it Contrary to my mind Loving and losing you Look what we put ourselves through Loving and losing you wasn't part of the plan But here I am I'm feeling like a broken man And I just want you to understand I'm not alright cause you and i have reached the end of the line Cause I reaping what I've sown And now I have to watch you go We'll be just fine you'll see In only a matter of time It's for the better I know Apart we'll grow But it doesn't make it easier In my head tossing and turning The night's are getting longer And this bed is feeling colder So I pour, I pour myself into the sound This is how i escape A new reality The life that we once knew Is abruptly changing We fought and we fell apart repeatedly You didn't want that life for us and I can't disagree I'm not alright cause you and i have reached the end of the line Cause I'm reaping what I've sown And now I have to watch you go We'll be just fine you'll see In only a matter of time It's for the better I know Apart we'll grow And it kills me to see our family divide This time, this time it cuts down deep inside Do I deserve love Am I good enough You'll go your way and I'll go mine As the pages turn in her life It pains me to see us divide I'm not alright cause you and i have reached the end of the line Cause I'm reaping what I've sown And now I have to watch you go We'll be just fine you'll see In only a matter of time It's for the better I know Apart we'll grow