Until the End

I'm selfish, I'm cold At least that's what I was told Thoughts spinning through my head over and over Can I forgive myself for what I've done Can we let the past stay dead Echos of growing up I just want to be enough Trying to show that I will not give up Even if nobody cares That's neither here or there I have to take care of me Or else I'll be good for nothing No matter how hard it gets I'm pushing until the end I just want to be proud of me Not quitting is the hardest thing And though I've learned how to walk away I'm still hoping for a brighter day Being intentional with what I say My heart it knows no other way Can we learn to let go Move on and grow on our own Move past the superficial Good headspace is essential My mind is still purging All the guilt inside of me My mind is still purging All the guilt inside of me No matter how hard it gets I'm pushing until the end I just want to be proud of me Not quitting is the hardest thing And though I've learned how to walk away I'm still hoping for a brighter day Being intentional with what I say My heart it knows no other way I need someone to believe in me And for once, not just me I wanna feel like I'm something Feeling so weary doing the same thing Can you answer life's calling Find a dream worth pursuing A brighter future for you and me With nothing stopping us from following our dreams Can I live without resentment Being grateful for what i have Cause nothing's ever ideal I must process the pain I feel