Verse:

They say don’t let the stress get to you

They say don’t let the small things upset you

I say I’m fine, but I’m lyin even though I’m standing next to you

Cut out the things in life that don’t bring out the best in you

Critical thinking, over analyzing everything is a gift and a curse

Sat in my room to try and gather my thoughts but I couldn’t find the words

This music is what helps when I need to express it

It sounds nice over a beat when I’m sayin it, but are they really gettin the message

What I’m sayin is, sometimes I feel so disconnected

I could sit in a room full of people and still feel alone, I don’t get it

What do you do when the world is on your shoulders

What do you do when you feel like you ain’t strong enough to hold it

Feel like I’m about to topple over, tellin my friends not to come over

I ain’t been the best me n’

Lately I’ve been fighting own demons

I can’t act like everything’s ok and expect you to believe it

I just need some time by myself right now

What do you do when you feel upside down

Maybe I just need a hug right now

Maybe I just need some love right now

Fuck it, I don’t know I just wanna be the right way, round

I believe everything and everyone lesson

But I’ve lost too much, and seen too much bad shit happen to have faith in a god

My grandmas body is slowing shutting down while I just get to sit watch

Knowin' there’s not thing I can do

To save you

Wanna take away these dark skies and paint em blue

Sometimes I wanna leave this world and escape it too

But I’ve gotta face the truth, we can’t erase the mistakes of our past

I can get too lost in all things I wish I could undo

Why

Why do I get too lost in my emotions

Why can’t I control my anger

I turn into someone you don’t recognize like you’re lookin at a stranger

Why can’t I just let shit go and squash it

I keep holding on and it’s exhaustin'

I keep holding on Like there ain’t another option, caution

My soul is tired, Hate feeling like my time is about to expire

I’ve been feeling dangerously uninspired

So I put my heart on the line in every song for a couple of likes

I’m spilling my feelings for people who don’t even know my name

They know these songs but do they know my pain

This is all of me, these are more than lyrics in a song for me

This is me trying to understand my psychology

This is me trying to get this fuckin weight off me

You call it music I call it therapy

The thoughts I’ve been having are starting to scare me

I can feel this pain or let it consume me

I can use this pain as strength or let it use me

I don’t think we hurt the same, a lot times I let it confuse me

What I’m looking for, I’m hopin' to find I just hope I don’t lose me