Habitual Pain (feat. Garren)

Yeah Life ain't what is seems Lately, I've been gettin' so distracted I'm seein' these things in my dreams Don't know what it means Came up with killers and robbers And shootin' dice with the thieves I've sat with millionnaires, rich and the wealthy And trust me, they ain't much different than the fiends Everyone bleeds I've seen the worst of the sinners, surrender and drop to their knees I gave my heart to the world and all he ever did was chew it up and spit it out I gave my soul for the fame now I walk around empty, that's all I ever think about I gave the people I trusted the things that they needed, they turned on me and tried to hide Funny how people the closest and people we love always end up snakes in disguise They just don't know, no one understands me They said I couldn't, they said that I can't be Be what I want in this life and prosper my goals They starin', they laughin' right at me I feel ashamed, pictures they paint Lookin' me down and they spit on my name Habitual pain, a sinner, a saint Wonder if anybody feels the same Growing up all we ever knew was violence Growing up all we ever knew was pain Growing up people looked down on us, frowned on us, didn't see us as the same Growing up all we ever knew was single mother strugglin' and father servin' bids Growing up all we ever saw was murder, hate, drugs, adapted to it as a kid How can you blame us for only repeating the cycle of all the things that we were taught? How can you blame us for hatin' the system and blame us for saying "Motherfucking cops"? How can you blame us for takin' these drugs? Our addiction's the only way we can escape Escape from reality, feelin' so useless and feelin' like bein' born was a mistake (fuck) Too much pain these days And I just wanna get away, ooh Drink until I get faded Might as well drink 'til I get faded, ooh, ooh, yeah It's so long, I'm so numb, I can't feel it Is it right? Is it right wrong? I can't tell yet If I'm dead or alive or in Hell, yeah Man, I just wanna get away (ooh, woah, woah-woah) (Ooh-woah, oh-woah, woo-woo, woo-woo, woo-woo, woo-woo) (Woo-woo, woo-woo, woah-woah, woah-woah, oh) Man, I just wanna get away (ooh)