Who I Am

(How am I supposed to love you), when I don't know who I am? (And how could I give you all of me), if I'm only half a man? ('Cause I'm a sinking ship that's burning), so let go of my hand (And how can I give you all of me), if I'm only half a man? (How am I supposed to love you?) Yeah I wonder if my father was around, would he be proud of me? The thoughts inside my head are like people, they always crowding me Rain is always pouring, I feel like it's always drowning me Nothing I could do to stop it, it happens too often Make myself a hole and replace the space with a coffin Feel like I can do worse and I find myself ways to top it Maybe I'm the reason, bring my own self down Committing all this treason by bringing myself doubt I got problems that I feel, but I can't hold on no hands I got things that I've been doing but ain't going as planned Left is right, right is left, so I don't know which direction You could tell me to go straight, then I'd go straight to depression I don't wanna be a person that I hate, but I am Got anxiety in public, I ain't shaking no hands Alley ways is where I'm walking, I'ma blend in with fans Head low, hoodies up, only half a man How am I supposed to love you, when I don't love who I am? And how can I give you all of me, when I'm only half a man? 'Cause I'm a sinking ship that's burning, so let go of my hand And how can I give you all of me (yeah) when I'm only half a man? Yeah (how am I supposed to love you?) The demons say hello, they wanna show me hell How can I love you, if I don't know how to love myself? Wish I could pause for a second just to show and tell But the show must go on, I guess Feel like I did what I could, feel like I did what I should Feel like I misunderstood when I saw where they stood Would reality be different if you respected what I said then? I wonder if my brother is protecting me from Heaven All these people trying to get inside my mind, I can't let them Like I could let the fake the shit slide, nah, forget them Thought I'd be happy if I mattered to the rest As I walked through the valley of the shadow of death I'm realizing I'm closing my eyes as I'm holding my breath Hoping the angels holding me close, don't let go of me yet Call me a sinner for feeding the world when you're in my chest Half a man stare in the mirror, it's the moment we met How am I supposed to love you, when I don't know who I am? And how could I give you all of me, when I'm only half a man? 'Cause I'm a sinking ship that's burning, so let go of my hand And how can I give you all of me, if I'm only half a man?