Must Have Forgot

I'm not ashamed to admit it I am the person responsible for all the pain That I'm feeling Can't nobody hurt me like I hurt myself doing All of the time and I haven't been healing I don't think I'll make it so I take another One straight No I don't need no chaser Lately been getting too wasted Feel like it's just me vs the world Yeah I know everyone hates me This is the way that it has to be So I'm done running from whatever's after me I deserve all of it, do not feel bad for me Self inflicted, all the rules, do it happily I got nobody to call on The love that I had that is long gone In my whole life I've been misunderstood Yeah this whole damn world has got me all wrong I just wanna be myself, they want me to change They say when I drink that I should see myself Been dying inside and I'ma need my health Why you only come around when you need my help? I remember being suicidal Devil waiting on my arrival I pushed the limit so many times I don't know why I still survive on When I'm leaving, my spirit is under attack Have I fallen into a trap? Usually I don't get attacked And I'ma tell y'all about the pain that I felt all my life I become numb to the pain and it starts to feel right So give me what you got You can do your worst Send a hundred shots Put me in the dirt You must've forgot How much I'm really hurt You must've forgot You must've forgot So give me what you got Wondering if I'm gone or I'm not All I know is I'm alone in my thoughts I see you feeling right at home on the block You can change in the hand that you got They said that only time will tell I spent a little time in hell Commissary inside the cell All the time I was in the penitentiary Ain't a person in the world come and visit me Did I really do something hard to your pride? How you do so much wrong You ain't worth nobody time Way too many times it was weighing on my mind I was laying there at night, got to play it suicide I don't make believe Really got a guardian angel saving me Only reason that I'm still alive, thankfully Became who I aim to be You hate but you can't compete Sometimes I think that I'm somebody Other times I think that I'm nobody I ain't never wanna have to break down work But I want that fast life, I don't go with the slow money I don't make excuses, I create solutions I don't hang with losers, busy making moves I don't got no time to be chasing Gucci My life is an inspirational movie My spirit is under attack Have I fallen into a trap Usually I don't get attacked And I'ma tell y'all about the pain That I felt all my life I become numb to the pain And it starts to feel right So give me what you got You can do your worst Send a hundred shots Put me in the dirt You must've forgot How much I'm really hurt You must've forgot You must've forgot