Hurt the Ones I Love

I've been so distant I know love I've just been feeling everything And when I'm hurtin' I go numb Then I stop feelin' anything And when I'm spiralin' out of control I won't let you in I get so bitter and put up my walls And hurt you again You know I shot myself down Just to block out the pain And I've been tryna be better But I keep fading away And when I'm caught up in my emotions I'll push you out again 'Cause when I hate myself enough I hurt the ones I love I hurt the ones I love I get so caught in my moods, oh And say some things I don't mean And I'm sorry I'm defensive When you're only tryna help me I can't help it I hate how I can bе 'Cause when I'm spiralin' out of control I won't let you in I gеt so bitter and put up my walls And hurt you again You know I shot myself down Just to block out the pain And I've been tryna be better But I keep fading away And when I'm caught up in my emotions I'll push you out again 'Cause when I hate myself enough I hurt the ones I love I hurt the ones I love, yeah And I'm the one to blame I'm the one to blame I'm the one to blame I'm the one to blame You know I shot myself down Just to block out the pain And I've been tryna be better But I keep fading away And when I'm caught up in my emotions I'll push you out again 'Cause when I hate myself enough I hurt the ones I love I hurt the ones I love, yeah I hurt the ones I love