I'm contemplating why I hate it
When he texts if I want to go out and get drinks
He's not asking for it but in some weird way
Itt sounded like that in my brain
It's not his fault but again it's not mine
I'm so self conscious that he's wasting his precious time
As if hanging out with me, strings attached
Is like some kind of crime
I'm sick of sex, I don't want to let
Another person I might learn to like into my bed
Another chore I have to check
To lose my self respect feels so damn complex
Honestly, it just feels like currency
To keep someone somewhat interested in me
If I hear another you're just not doing it right
I might not make love for the rest of my life
I promise you're no different than the rest
And I'm sick of sex
A younger version of me incoherently
Would have settled for what this feels like
When he's in me I feel shitty I feel empty and like I'm dying inside
He says I'm pretty and I know he means well
But he's putting me right in my own personal hell
He suggested getting a taxi to his home somewhere deep in me knows
I'm sick of sex, I don't want to let
Another person I might learn to like into my bed
Another chore I have to check
To lose my self respect feels so damn complex
Honestly, it just feels like currency
To keep someone somewhat interested in me
If I hear another you're just not doing it right
I might not make love for the rest of my life
I promise you're no different than the rest
And I'm sick of
Trying to find the balance between
Hormonal balances and this ain't doing it for me
Between I know you'll never love me and fuck it
But my body is craving aloneness and I'm trying to love it so
I'm sick of sex, I don't want to let
Another person I might learn to like into my bed
Another chore I have to check
To lose my self respect feels so damn complex
Honestly, it just feels like currency
To keep someone somewhat interested in me
If I hear another you're just not doing it right
I might not make love for the rest of my life
Sorry you're no different than the rest
I'm so sick of sex
I'm so sick of sex
