She Forgot That I Existed

As you promised me that I was more than all the miles combined You must have had yourself a change of heart Like halfway through the drive 'Cause your voice trailed off exactly as you passed my exit sign Kept on driving straight and left our future to the right Now I am stuck between my anger and the blame that I can't face And memories of something even smoking weed does not replace And I am terrified of weather, 'cause I see you when it rains Doc told me to travel, but there's COVID on the planes (yeah, ayy) Running through sticks Cut off my friends as I'm caught in the mix Hoping for blessings but only get problems Whenever I called, she left me drunk-dialed, ay, yeah You were the hole in my heart That I needed filled for all of my life Remember the talks by the fire Where we would feel happy every night All these plans that we had, yeah Making me feel like I was the man Now I'm not I'm just her ex who was too dumb Let go of her hand Waitin' for you by the river Though we were just kids, won't take no one else here 'Cause you are my forever girl Nothing compares to the way that I loved her So I thought that if I found something good in all my bad That I could cancel out the darkness I inherited from dad No, I am no longer funny 'Cause I miss the way you laugh Once called me "Forever," now you still can't call me back I thought if I tried hard enough Yeah, you'd really come back Pacing my room whenever you'd text me Like I'm insane, gonna relapse Needed the happiness felt when we're young All the emotions never was wrong Swallow the sorrow I felt moving on The love that we built on top of this song Times that you hugged me in the middle of chaos Breathing together, two birds in a nest Made it through life with you by my side And all of the times you were my best friend Losing myself to the touch her skin 'Cause I gave my heart to the person within The summer was great, but everything ends I'll write you more songs, send you letters again Hey guys, I'm gonna say something This is from the bottom of my heart, man I think you're lucky if you come one time in your life to find the one I think if you fuck it up, you'll never find that one again You might go the rest of your life wondering "Was that the one? Did I miss her?" You know why I'm proud of you, Xan? You know why I love you so fucking much? It's because when something's right there in front of you You go after and get it