Dear Body

Started when I was a child Watching my mom go on a diet I thought maybe I should try it Dropped a size and lost my mind in the process Waking up afraid of change I put all my self-worth on my weight Living on compliments from strangers Self criticizing in the mirror, years later Toxic secrets, I made you keep I starved you out when you needed to eat But now that I see it I wanna set you free Dear body, I just wanna say I'm sorry 'Cause I'd never do this to somebody else But it's easy to hurt myself Dear body, you're taking good care of me I wish I could say the same about you After all that I put you through I'm sorry, dear body Dragged myself back to the gym When it was therapy, I should've been in I've never felt good in my skin And I still wear a T-shirt when I swim Ruined so many holidays Skipping the birthdays 'cause of cake Count every last little taste Wondering when it would show up on my thighs or my face I know better now that I'm older But in photos, I still hate my shoulders I wanna heal this I wanna set us free Dear body, I just wanna say I'm sorry (I'm sorry) 'Cause I'd never do this to somebody else But it's easy to hurt myself Dear body, you're taking good care of me I wish I could say the same about you After all that I put you through (through) I said, you were too big Then you were too small Too many curves, or none at all Why was I so cruel when you're me, and I am you? I'm sorry, dear body (I'm sorry, dear body) (I'm sorry, dear body) (I'm sorry, dear body) Dear body, I just wanna say I'm sorry 'Cause I'd never do this to somebody else But it's easy to hurt myself I'm sorry, dear body