Novocaine 2

Please leave a message after the tone Every night the light fades, my happiness goes with it Haunted by these memories I can't help but revisit Cryin' out for help, but nobody wants to listen What's it gonna take to break me out of this prison? Time has passed but nothin's changed except I'm more deranged I'm so out of it, snap out of it, I can't, I'm disengaged Now I'm off the drugs, they've been flowin' through my veins I've found a way to numb the pain, novocaine I still can't believe what happened, sadness keeps on rainin' down Nothin' ever goes as planned, I thought I'd be okay by now Lookin' back, I had it backwards, love is what I chased around Someone else can't make you happy, all you'll do is make them drown Take it from me, they say they'll stay but they'll leave And now I've either gotta heal or kill myself to be free Cuz I'm so manic, every decision I make is extreme I still don't know what my purpose is, I don't know what it means God, I think I'm finished, I don't think I wanna live But y'all don't want me dead yet, I got too much left to give I cut slits on my wrist, they remind me to exist I done came too far to give up, it's too late to call it quits I've been trippin' for a minute, off the pills, I'm an abuser All alone and got no home and got no soul and got no future And my mind is full of voices, can't get rid of these intruders They say time heals all, those ain't nothin' more than rumours I've been down bad, still me, I'm still sad Clip full of bullets but I'm still weak, I can't blast Livin' for the moment, I'ma die young and live fast I can't wait until the day when all I see is pitch black Maybe nothin's real, I can't even believe in myself Everything I feel is tellin' me I can't be myself If the truth reveals, will I be able to free myself? If the truth reveals, will I be able to see myself? I will never know but that doesn't matter, does it? Cuz no one gives a fuck, I'm just a topic of discussion A name they'll entertain, another source of pointless judgement I'm a picture in a frame, they can look but they can't touch it Novocaine, novocaine, fuck the money, fuck the fame I ain't changin', switchin' lanes, rainzzz forever, I'm the same I'ma go against the grain, they can think that I'm insane But what they consider normal's an illusion in their brains Every night the light fades, my happiness goes with it When you're heartbroken, you're scarred and you can't stitch it There's somethin' missin' in me, a space that I can't fill in There's gotta be an answer out there but what is it? I'm second guessin' everything I feel inside within I'm insecure, I'm sad, I'm not comfortable in my skin I never chose to be me or live in this life of sin Some say better days are ahead but I'm not convinced Rainzzz Another Memory 2 In a world of my own forever