Growing Pains

(Dear diary... I'm not feeling so good) (Let me out of my mind prison!) I've spent too much time on prayer "Hate the sinner and not the sin!" I've choked on all the lies and slander Climbed mountains tops but I'll never Win Thought I healed from all the hatred Now I'm just a hollow broken shell Tainted truths weaved inside what's sacred A wise man spoke and said "welcome to hell" This is just a downward spiral Straight into the depths of hell Lived my life off pure survival But I'd rather be a carcass with a bullet In his head This is just an uphill battle Mind slips to the depths of hell Live my life like no tomorrow Cause I'd rather be a carcass with a bullet in his head I... Wish you could see The damage you've done to me But now I know I've been set free I finally know How to be alone I've suffered through these growing pains Wait... It's happening again No... No! I'm just sitting in my prison Counting out the final days Mind gave up and now I'm stranded Lost the battle now there's war to win Find a single thought to think of Obsess or die of cold decay Slip into the walls there's treasure Lord's gotta know that I'm drenched in sin I... Wish you could see The damage you've done to me But now I know I've been set free I finally know How to be alone I've suffered through these growing pains I... Wish you could see The damage you've done to me But now I know I've been set free I finally know How to be alone I've suffered through these growing pains