pain is all we know

Pain is all we've known Wouldn't we be better off alone? Burnin' lights in the sun Filled up Choked by the phone Darlin', i hope you understand Yeah (boy fifty) Uh When i was young, i was abused as an adolescent By a man my mother loved, but she was too defenseless A prisoner inside my home, i never felt protected The scars and bruises that i wore, they told me, "just accept it" Accept the fact that i was helpless, couldn't understand The pain and trauma as a child, my blood was on his hands Father nowhere to be found, i tried to be a man I tried to talk to god, i needed love, it wasn't in his plans I closed my eyes and try to sleep away the thoughts But the more i tried to run away from pain, the more it fought All this anger in my heart, don't let it show, all i was taught Since then i kept my feelings hidden, locked inside a box And i started to question if they ever gave a fuck about me Started to question their intentions and the ones around me Started to question why this pain is all i know Maybe I'm better off alone, this world is probably Better off without me Pain is all we've known Filled up choked by the phone Wouldn't we be better off alone? Burnin' lights in the sun Salvation is so close to hell Darlin', i hope you understand Yeah Habitual pain, we pass it down and we have no remorse Traumatized from what i've seen, but i ain't have a choice It's hard to love, i seen my family get destroyed A world of sorrow in this life, it's somethin' i know I can't avoid, damn Was always told the pain controls you if you let it Was always told the first step is the acceptance The trust you give, sometimes they use it as a weapon Why is it always people that we love that hurt us? I don't get it (fuck) And truth be told, i question morals 'cause how these people do me I never open up my feelings, it's detrimental to me I ain't used to gettin' close 'cause how these people use me And then they'll paint me as a villain, this shit so confusin' I think about it, late nights, when i'm in bed Close my eyes, but i can't hide the monsters in my head My heart's drownin' in regret 'cause of things i should've said Come take the bitter out my bones And rip my heart up out my chest, Damn Pain is all we've known Filled up Choked up by the phone Wouldn't we be better off alone? Burnin' lights in the sun Salvation is so close to hell Darlin', i hope you understand