1:31 (Deuteronomy)

It's 1:31 in the morning

March 5th, 2024

I'm tweaking on the floor

Going against the Lord

Listening to Token

Getting more and more fed up

With my motives

Hope it's not all over

Hopeless need to let up

On my hubris

Find it humorous

Where i'm at

I'm a leader

Shattered glass

Path i walk on

Leading others off a cliffside

Hit by

My demons

Imma keep lying

Say i'm doing fine

But inside i'm feeling violent

Blade inside of my brain

And a knife cut through through my windpipe

I can't breathe

But i still fight while i can fight

Heard it all before

More and more

I'm just thinking like i can't quite

Say what i want

Feeling restrained by

Those that i let on the inside

Might as well get hit by

The monster

That's a riptide

Hook line and sinker

That's my soul with the finger

Pointed at my chest

I figure

I am not the best

So i'll prove myself to death(death)

Screaming at the masses

Hoping someone gives a rip

As i rip into my soul

Blood and bones

Broken thrones

Shattered home

Scattered goals

This is where i choose to roam

This is where i choose to stay

Whose to say i'm wrong to stay up late

Allow my brain

Space to maintain

The place that i chase and i face every day

And bait my train of thought toward the hate

What i'm tryna say

Is i'm just fed up with all this fake emotion

Getting sick of all this weight

Okay

Its just past 2

And i'm half way through

Still too much left to say

But i'm starting to get to get loose

I take a second to breathe

And i let my heart beat

Feeling my pulse in my eyes

Getting hard to see

Impulses are high

I can start to feel the heat

My throat is on fire

And I just need to sleep

I'm feeling weak

My feet ache

As i pace around this room

The place where i've done too much

To be loved by you

Yeah I'll flip this to a prayer

I hope you do too

Won't you see my brokenness?

God, I know you see through

All the lies and all the doubts

But i'm starting to hear voices

Seeing shadows all around

So i speak out

And seek out

Okay getting unhinged

Need to reel it back in

I'm losing my grip

On reality

It spins

My sins are leaking out their dens

Into this pen

As i pretend to write on paper

And type on a phone

Not even home

Over in my aunt's

Guest bedroom

Help you see through the haze

And gaze into my day

Just a lazy

College kid

Slipping away from god on his spring break

Not a fake

But ill say too much

And make you think im crazed

Who else out there

Is willing to share

Yeah i know this song went from a tier to meh

In a sec

Just had to get all this out of head

I'm feeling dead

Check the clock

It's now 2:37

Amen