Not a Soul

Look into my eyes

What do you see?

Not a soul knows

What comes and goes

Through my own thoughts

Chipping away

At my sanity

Left in rubble

Not a day

Passes me

Where my thoughts are muddled

I'm getting sick of myself

Satan beating on my health

Forgot where i left my spiritual wealth

Oh well-

Well let's delve into my mind

Maybe someone else cares

To hear what causes me tears

I've been on my own

Top of the world i roam

But no it don't feel like home

Working my way up to heaven

But selling my soul devils

In love with the battle

Can't let go

No

My river has no steady flow

Overflowing drought

Over flowing doubts

Hoping i don't drown

Hoping no one shouts

Ears ring when it gets loud

Try to shut it out

Instead of shutting down

No one make a sound

Nothing out the mouth

Pain will turn it south

But i've learned to hide it well

Wear my mask around

Keep my eyes to the -

Ground

Getting wound up in my head

Wind up being dead

Why not seek the edge

Why not see the ledge

I'll start seeing red

I'll jump off

Just to see

If i can get back up again

Toxic mindset flowing in

Thinking twice

Hesitate then fly

Feel like getting high

So i climb

Then they say

What a guy

Who am i?

Where's the line?

Mind if i

Try to dive

From the ground up

To the sky

I just hope i don't

Die when i land

Hide from the demand

Head up in the sand

Fed up with the brand

Try to be the man

Cry when in command

I misunderstand

I just feel invalid

Like im less than what i've counted

I've been in my head for hours

I was sent out darkness

Then i clawed back to his light it's

Present on my face

Don't you see?

Don't you know?

Come here stand close

Gaze into my soul

There you go

Yeah

Look into my eyes

What do you see?

Not a soul knows

What comes and goes

Through my own thoughts

Chipping away

At my sanity

Left in rubble

Not a day

Passes me

Where my thoughts are muddled

I'm getting sick of myself

Satan beating on my health

Forgot where i left my spiritual wealth

Oh well-

Well let's delve into my mind

Maybe someone else cares

To hear what causes me tears

See I was just a kid

But counted among men

It would take ten lifetimes

To go through what I have

Yeah, I play it in my head

Moments where i ran and fled

Mom and dad are arguing

Dad is, on that, pipe again

I just can't put down this pen

I'm stu-stu-stu-stu-stuttering

Doubling over struggling

Bubbling over, hovering

When is it over? done with it

Uttering out, im juggling

Troubling now, i'm shuttering

Fluttering now, but honestly

I'm sick of this season, modesty

Be far from me

Yeah imma be

Who god called me to be

See to it that i'm only me

From confidence i will not flee

I'm free to think i'm free

Easy for me to say

Who am i to deny my past self

I look into a mirror

See a boy screaming help

Then spit in his face and say that i'm doing well

Hell has got its grip but im starting to slip out

But there's still shackles on my feet

Man...

Look into my eyes

What do you see?

Not a soul knows

What comes and goes

Through my own thoughts

Chipping away

At my sanity

Left in rubble

Not a day

Passes me

Where my thoughts are muddled

I'm getting sick of myself

Satan beating on my health

Forgot where i left my spiritual wealth

Oh well-

Well let's delve into my mind

Maybe someone else cares

To hear what causes me tears

Yeah there always seems to be

A war inside of me

Sure he's won my battle

But i made up my mind to flee

How do you win a war

That i'm too afraid to fight

Just a dude, beaten sore

I'm relying on your might

Yeah i'm through, please no more

I just want me out of sight

I can't move, i abhor

The brutality of life

I might

Just fight fire with fire

And end my life tonight

Not suicide

But maybe just a break from the light

Ya know?