I been going down for a minute tryna get back up,

I’m boutta drown while I’m swimming I’m just like Mac was.

I can’t get out of this feeling man I’m just that stuck,

all my friends keep asking have I had enough.

I guess not yet, I guess not,

this’ll be my last one, lemme press my luck.

I can’t stop yeah, I won’t stop,

the fact is now I’d rather be dead than done.

Feels like something’s in the water,

I’m not too sure why it keeps on getting stronger.

It’s harder to get back to shore than I thought of,

but now I’m so washed out, I don’t even wanna.

Being honest that’s just what it is,

I gotta problem that I don’t think imma ever fix.

Yeah I’m a goner and I’m farther than I’ve ever been,

just told my father “Sorry you ain’t get a better kid.”

Get the vodka now it’s time to sip,

gotta take a shot quick,

homies wonder where I’ve been,

I tell ‘em I got sick.

I’m not even lying cause I’m sick inside my conscious,

trying different drugs hoping one of ‘em will stop this.

Waking up feelin’ nauseous,

getting drunk’s just another day at the office.

Always lost in this inner conflict,

I don’t know who i became but it’s not Nick.

I been going down for a minute tryna get back up,

I’m boutta drown while I’m swimming I’m just like Mac was.

I can’t get out of this feeling man I’m just that stuck,

all my friends keep asking have I had enough.

I guess not yet, I guess not,

this’ll be my last one, lemme press my luck.

I can’t stop yeah, I won’t stop,

the fact is now I’d rather be dead than done.

Feels like it’s all or nothin’ now,

this is everything my life has come to now,

took a swim but I might give up and drown. It would be so easy,

I’m gettin sick off all the fuckin’ ups and downs,

they say whatever goes around comes around,

but I don’t ever think im leaving from the clouds.

Getting fucked up frees me,

I don’t know whatever else to run to now, when I get the pain deep, it numbs it out.

It’s the only thing keeping me from being underground.

When I’m without it im pounding my head,

I find myself so annoyed.

Tryna find deeper meaning in the circle of life,

but like a circle it has no point.

What’s the point?

They can’t even hear my voice,

I’m yelling out for help inside this empty house

I am destroyed.

Clearly I’m breaking down but no one’s around to hear the noise,

Imma just keep smokin loud,

only way to fill this void.

Only way out is if it’s a gun in my mouth or a joint,

I don’t even care which one it is go head and flip a coin.

Pick your poison kid whatever puts an end to all this noise,

I just want a fix and need it quick.

I’m not an addict just a boy who’s gotta habbit of drinking as if he’s got not choice.

But that’s a subject I would much rather avoid.

And don’t you try to tell me what I am to get me paranoid,

y’all don’t know a thing about my pain,

they make me so annoyed.

They don’t know the feeling of waking up every day,

filling up a drink just to get the feeling of joy. My life is way too different and difficult for you to ever exploit,

but if you wanna explore it, well I should join.

I need a change, before I really go insane.

There’s just something in my way,

that doesnt want me to escape.

I need the freedom from these chains, yeah.

Can barely breathe I’m suffocating.

Can someone show me what the way is,

to get these demons out my brain.

I’ll do whatever it’ll take,

I’ll give it all up today.

I’ll do whatever it’ll take,

I’ll give it all up today.