You

Dear well, I probably shouldn't say your name I just wanted to tell you that a lot of things have changed The other day I found this letter that you wrote to me, so ima read it I swear it's like the sweetest poetry So look, you always saw the bright side of things And you taught me to appreciate the nice silent things Remember I was just a kid trapped and forgotten But you believed in me, that'll never be forgotten And you was older so your words spoke loud As I look back at it now I gotta find you in that crowd So what a mess, look at me with all the stress If you ran into me now I'd probably never find happiness We used to party but I never really drank I just went into the bathroom and I poured it down the sink And now I grab the bottle even tighter when I hold it I gave my soul to you, but you turned around and sold it for your own life I guess I'm being selfish now But I got a lot of clout from this fucking rapping style You told me that I changed, I'll admit it But its strange cause I'm sitting thinking you the one to blame So I hit you on your cell just to know it went to voicemail So how we gonna communicate, I'll never know I guess I gotta let it go Don't cry just go to that place You needed time so I gave you space I'll wonder if I'll ever get to talk to you I'm doing this for me yo, not for you And I just wanna know if you can hear me So maybe turn it up, speak a little clearly No matter how many songs I make You gonna never hear me say that I made a mistake And that I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart You put up with a lot it was a problem from the start And even if you took me back it wouldn't be the same I'll even get a tattoo for you of your name And you know I never meant to be an asshole I guess it's greener where the other people's grass grows But wait a minute, why you wonder if I'll stay committed? I used to visit you when you was at your baby sitting But now I need a chaperon to even get me through the day The minute that you left I had so much to say I never got the chance to even tell you that I loved you Fuck you, now I only see you when I"m looking up above You must be selfish to take your own life What about me and the other people that I thought you liked And now that you're gone sometimes I wanna do it too I can't, I gotta stay here just to spite you I'll write you when, damn I'm not like you We all got demons I wish that you could fight too You lost the battle and you tossed it in But you're up there in the sky and I'm down without a friend Do't cry just go to that place You needed time so I gave you space I'll wonder if I'll ever get to talk to you I'm doing this for me yo, not for you