Things I Never Said

Why didn't I say anything? Why didn't I talk to you? Why didn't I tell you something was wrong? Why did I give up? There was so much pain Things I couldn't explain Every time that I tried You started to cry It hurt me too much inside To paint you as the villain The reasons I left kept concealed in I took the blame Won't slander your name I care too much to let you feel it All I wanted was to protect you from the truth I guess that's the issue It was too easy to just let you hate me Instead of debating what we couldn't work through Cuz you never changed The things that bothered me were always the same And I was so stressed I gave up and left And that's why I took the blame Oh no You say you Never knew the real reason why I left I guess I'll write it down Put it to rest Cuz every time I speak of you I'm speakin' from my chest My heart is in every word I gave you nothin' less From the moment that we met To the moment that I left I gave you my all But all I gave was not enough And everything I said Was to save you from the pain I know you don't believe it Told me every single day Let's get down to the truth Unfiltered raw emotion Let me dig it up It's what you want right For me to be open I guess it's sad the only way I know how Is into this mic But it's poetic on a certain level Loneliest nights Thoughts flowin' just right But I get it It's painful when the only person you wanna help never let you Enable the fact that he pushes you away Sittin' in the dark at the dinner table You had no idea what was comin' Claimin' he wants to save you These are the things I never said Gotta get 'em off my chest Cuz now you hate me for the wrong reasons All the lies people told you You believed 'em Now it's eatin' at me I Think about you every night Everything that we went through Nothin' mattered in the end you Listened to the rumors Welcome to the future Never thought I'd say Yeah man I knew her Never thought I'd see the day When you would straight hate me I never wanted you to feel this way Now lookin' back it all makes sense We fell apart And it's all my fault But you would never validate the things that hurt my heart You always Turned it around make me sound like the bad guy I did you wrong Told 'em that lie All I wanted was to protect you from the truth I guess that's the issue It was too easy to just let you hate me Instead of debating what we couldn't work through Cuz you never changed The things that bothered me were always the same And I was so stressed I gave up and left And that's why I took the blame Oh no Every argument got harder Had it turn from hopin' we could fix it Into me bein' a martyr I would hide in my office Behind the sounds of silence I was so focused on your happiness I gave up on mine 'cuz Had to put on a show Yeah I wore a smile So the people around me wouldn't ask about how The girl I was suppose to marry was bringin' me down Or how in the midst of creating our future I lost myself I've never been in this position Wishin' you would listen Like a bad drug you had me trippin' Now I'm reminiscin' The heart in me was hardening Makin' it hard to be hardly me And honestly Yeah I think I lost a part of me I Hope you're doin' better than I am Cuz it still kills me knowin' you hate me for what I did I chose to walk away and get back to me again But that's a story for another day Just keep listenin' There was so much pain Things I couldn't explain Every time that I tried You started to cry It hurt me too much inside To paint you as the villain The reasons I left kept concealed in I took the blame Won't slander your name I care too much to let you feel it All I wanted was to protect you from the truth I guess that's the issue It was too easy to just let you hate me Instead of debating what we couldn't work through Cuz you never changed The things that bothered me were always the same And I was so stressed I gave up and left And that's why I took the blame Oh no (Oh no no no oh no)