Mononokay

What does it mean to be happy? And am I getting better? I used to make excuses for myself But it's not the weather I've tried to rid myself Of my anxious tendencies But I have to accept my head for what it is to me I'm not superhuman Well, I'm barely alive But I would kill to leave my house To not be afraid of the outside So, I started thinking It'd be so nice To not have trouble sleeping I haven't slept in nights So, I called to apologize For every night I told you, "I didn't want to live my life" But I hung up 'Fore you picked up 'Cause I changed my mind You know more about plants Than I know about myself And if giving up doesn't make you stronger Then, why the hell am I still here? Call me depressed And tell me to get over it It's not in my head And it's in my blood So, I called to apologize For every night I told you, "I didn't want to live my life" But I hung up Before you could pick up 'Cause I changed my mind And I've gotten better At getting better And I've gotten better At getting better At being me I've gotten better At getting better And I've gotten better At being me And I've gotten better At getting better And I've gotten better At being me At being me