Now I'm Forever

Lately I been out of pocket, not what I intended Nowadays my mind is moving miles by the minute Ask me if I really want it, who the fuck you kiddin' Music took over my life right before I tried to Lately I been out of pocket, not what I intended Nowadays my mind is moving miles by the minute Ask me if I really want it, who the fuck you kiddin' Music took over my life right before I tried to end it How could I turn my back on the one damn thing That saved my fucking life I was hanging off the edge Fuck the money in my pocket, all that has a limit This music is forever and now that's how long I'm living You ever feel stuck, inside your own head Can't control bad thoughts from filling up It's like you stuck inside a big fucking spiral And inside you bubble up, immune to bluffing smiles 'Cause you used to hiding the pain you won't discuss You feel like the whole world is after you right now It ain't actually, you imagine it like that Hard times of your life is happening right now Think about it that means that you're passing it right now It ain't a punishment trust and Believe in the process and stop tryna rush it If things gon' be changing that means you're adjusting Stop chasing your shot man, I promise it's coming I've been silently fighting myself Now it's time that I just have to let it out Lately I been out of pocket, not what I intended Nowadays my mind is moving miles by the minute Ask me if I really want it, who the fuck you kiddin' Music took over my life right before I tried to end it How could I turn my back on the one damn thing That saved my fucking life I was hanging off the edge Fuck the money in my pocket, all that has a limit This music is forever and now that's how long I'm living Yeah Not gon' lie, so many times I wanna quit But then I stop and look beyond the pain And see I was born for this The pain I feel's from God I was a sacrifice, it comes from him And that's the reason why the things I write Is touching lives Of all the people who ain't got a voice The ones who wake up feeling scared Terrified, they see the sun And dread they've seen another day See it only as an opportunity for fucking pain To find its way back in their life Makes them beg for heaven's gates I always thought that God was against me But it was blessings that he always disguised so well If I could go back in time, I would embrace all the times I felt no stress on my mind 'cause Lately I been out of pocket, not what I intended Nowadays my mind is moving miles by the minute Ask me if I really want it, who the fuck you kiddin' Music took over my life right before I tried to end it How could I turn my back on the one damn thing That saved my fucking life I was hanging off the edge Fuck the money in my pocket, all that has a limit This music is forever and now that's how long I'm living