Social Stamina

I lost touch with all my friends I'm in bed by 10 p.m. I have no social stamina I cancel on all my plans I commit then I don't answer I can't keep up with anyone Now I'm a desert island, I know I push away until I'm alone When did I become someone no one loves? I'm a broken record, it shows All I ever say is "no" When did I become someone I don't love? Now I don't know, I don't know who I am How did I turn into a person who I can't stand? How did I let it get this bad? Now I can't go back, now I'm all I have And I don't know, I don't know who I am (And I don't know, I don't know who I am) Trigger warnings in my mind I'm so vulnerable at night So I watch romantic comedies (I watch romantic comedies) But happy couples make me cry I can't find someone in real life Always feel like something's wrong with me Now I'm a desert island, I know I push away until I'm alone When did I become someone no one loves? Now I don't know, I don't know who I am How did I turn into a person who I can't stand? How did I let it get this bad? Now I can't go back, now I'm all I have And I don't know, I don't know who I am (And I don't know, I don't know who I am) Now I don't know, I don't know who I am (And I don't know, I don't know who I am) Now I don't know, I don't know who I am (And I don't know, I don't know who I am)