I Should Just Go To Bed

Guess you're really gone I've been so fixated On everything I lost In just one conversation Where you said life was long But mine isn't worth wastin' Your mind isn't wrong, doesn't mean I'm not Wishin' I could change it It's always 10 P.M. layin' in my head Turning all my thoughts to potential texts That's the way I get after 2 A.M., and it's 2 A.M. So, how you doin'? You seem fine and I've been goin' through it Selfishly, I hope your heart is ruined 'Cause somehow, you still love me in my head I hate that I imagine When you get this message, your reaction It's late again, well, that's what always happens I know I'd regret everything I'd sent I should just go to bed (ooh) I should just go to bed (ooh) I don't wanna care (hmm) So I'm optimistic (hmm) Am I not self-aware (hmm) For hoping that you'll miss this? And you say there's a future us (hmm) But how can I be certain of what we'll become? (Hmm) With all your words and actions never syncing up (hmm) It's hard to know it's me you're really thinking of 'Cause when it's 10 P.M., layin' in my head I can hear your voice, words you never said That's the way I get after 2 A.M., here I go again So, how you doin'? You seem fine and I've been goin' through it Selfishly, I hope your heart is ruined 'Cause somehow, you still love me in my head I hate that I imagine When you get this message, your reaction It's late again, well, that's what always happens I know I'd regret everything I'd send I should just go to bed (ooh) I should just go, go, I should just go to bed, I should just go, go to I should just go to bed (ooh) I should just go, go, I should just go to bed, I should just go, go to I should just go to bed So, why's it hard to be the bigger person? I'm just hurtin' I keep tryna justify the way you left and it's not workin' Don't deserve it Swear to God you're hurtin' me on purpose And maybe it's my faults, 'cause, at your worst, I see the best in you Lettin' you go, piece by piece, until there's nothin' left to lose It's workin' But sometimes I just wanna say in person How you doin'? You seem fine and I've been going through it Selfishly, I hope your heart is ruined Really thought we'd make it in the end I should just go to bed