Save Yourself

And I know you think you know me But you don't know where I've been I'm a mess, what's happiness When you just fuck it up again? I might lose my way I might not come back I know you try to stay to help But go and save yourself This ain't a way to be livin', I get it Didn't know bad it was until you actually said it Breakin' down but tellin' everyone I'm fine, I know I promised I would talk before I crossed that line again but didn't Yeah, I guess that's just the way my head works Open up another couple scars before you mend yours I don't learn from watching others crash, I gotta wreck first 'Cause I don't think that love is really love until you get hurt, yeah And I know what you think Said it's hard to love me when I Don't love myself and I'm on the brink Of trading in this sobriety for a fucking drink And I don't wanna talk about it till we're bout to sink, yeah Maybe I just need a day off Maybe I'm just more fucking comfortable in the chaos You say you love me, so you stay on Invested all your time and wonder when it's gonna pay off, huh? And I know you think you know me But you don't know where I've been I'm a mess, what's happiness When you just fuck it up again? I might lose my way I might not come back I know you try to stay to help But go and save yourself So afraid of the failure that now I'm barely livin' Spent a lifetime of working with nothin' left to give it Lookin' back at the things we been through and feel I miss it I been running forever, I don't know how you didn't When you're sitting right next to me, don't know where I go I'm in my head with these songs and pick apart every note These insecurities killing me but I never show The things I'm thinking are probably worse than you'll ever know Yeah, we been feeling like we can't move Same house, same walls, but a different view Spending time avoiding this inconvenient truth I got some problems and I'm sick of trying to blame you 'Cause I feel, like I been, on my own, in my head The light goes, and I see You fall when standing beside me And every night I lie awake Tryin' to fight but every day, I'm feeling less, feeling less like me Still waiting for me to open up She ain't cheating, just fantasizing bout who I was Fell in love with this image that I portray, but know it ain't a lie It's who I want to be at the end of the day I know the feelings and the thoughts will keep me down Depression and anxiety, hanging inside the clouds No matter where I go, they keep following me around And you think that one day, I can make it out And I know you think you know me But you don't know where I've been I'm a mess, what's happiness When you just fuck it up again? I might lose my way I might not come back I know you try to stay to help But go and save yourself (Go and save yourself) Go and save yourself (Go and save yourself) Go and save yourself