i tried everything (feat. Kailee Morgue & Zaini)

I swear I've tried everything Cut the coffee for some tea Cutting friends off who were mean And i tried to get more sleep I swear I tried everything they said's supposed to work How come no one told me as a kid that life's supposed to hurt Yeah I heard that better days are right around the corner but I peeked around it just to find out that I'm sort of fucked (damn) So now I walk around emotionless a hopeless mess Drowning in this hopelessness Pretending that I'm swimming let's see how long I can hold my breath Before I hit the bottom floor Hide away and lock my door and overthink my problems more I just don't know why it's gotta be this hard to exist There's nothing left that I can do to help I'm convinced, cuz I swear I've tried everything Cut the coffee for some tea Cutting friends off cuz they're mean And i tried to get more sleep I swear I've tried everything and haven't seen a result Wish I could go back to my teens don't wanna be an adult My life just isn't how it seemed it'd be when I was a kid Now when I wake up from my dreams I wish that never woke cuz they're so vivid But the second I get out of bed I watch it fade to monotone Surrounded by the ones I love but in my head I'm all alone I put my phone silent take a walk and then it starts to rain Coincidence but ever since it happened haven't been the same Why's it gotta be this hard to exist There's nothing left that I can do to help I'm convinced, cuz I swear I've tried everything Cut the coffee for some tea Cutting friends off cuz they're mean And i tried to get more sleep I swear I've tried it all Got better sleep Had therapy two times a week I hit a wall and I broke to pieces Still ain't gotten back on my feet I don't recall feeling like myself This medication I'm on's no help I try to hide how I feel inside But I'm losing grip of my mental health Why's it gotta be this hard to exist There's nothing left that I can do to help I'm convinced, cuz I swear I've tried everything Cut the coffee for some tea Cutting friends off who were mean And i tried to get more sleep But the roots are planted so deep Do you think that you could love me