Float

Why can't I see that I'm the one who needs change Everyone I love finds a way to run away Leaving me alone like "Why you not stay?" I know that it's me, how I handle my pain And I'm sorry for the hurt that I caused you to never make you wanna come back You told jokes that I never could have laughed at I was dealing with the trauma but you saw that You tried to make change but I stayed in my place So I'm sorry for my ways and the mistakes I don't wanna stay same but it's too safe Everything I say to make you stay Now you're gone and I'm stuck here so alonе I love you but I'm sorry that it couldn't show We realizе all we have when we let it go But it's too late now, we'll never know I just gotta float Don't you try to catch me Please just don't think less of me Cause my heart's broke How'd this get so messy? Why life's so depressing? Act like a monster Feel like an imposter In my own life all the time, wonder how I lost her That's not my problem, I don't gotta solve 'em I don't fucking got the time to climb up from the bottom All the time I was stuckof my mind Think about how I just want some love in my life Now I'm stuck in the state, wanna end my life I'm just scared to say that so I tell her I'm fine Say I'm OK but I'm not, really miss you All the pain coming back but I can't call you You're the only one who ever made the problems go away You're the only thing that ever really made me wanna stay But I did it to myself so I don't deserve your help I'm in love with all the pain, I don't know if you could tell I'm all caught up in my mind, I keep telling you those lies I wish I never did, now you're outta my mind Alone I'm here today like I'll be inside my grave Never make a change so nobody ever stay Go and let me be, 'cause I know this is my fate That I finally had to float from mistakes that I've made I just gotta float Don't you try to catch me Please just don't think less of me Cause my heart's broke How'd this get so messy? Why life's so depressing? Act like a monster Feel like an imposter In my own life all the time, wonder how I lost her That's not my problem, I don't gotta solve 'em I don't fucking got the time to climb up from the bottom