Nowhere Fast

I start to drive with no destination Turn the music way too loud I'm avoiding any sound that isn't Billie Eilish or the angels singing Hide my feelings in this car I'm not getting very far But is it for the better If I'm driving in this weather Making everyone at home Wonder if I'm coming home Mentally I'm in the past Where I'm going nowhere fast I try so hard to change Maybe that's why I'm the same Cue the rain it knows how I've been feeling Orchestrating all my tears Amplifying all my fears And I look to the sky and I am simply dreaming Oh I'm jealous of the birds Do they know how bad this hurts Letting Jesus take the wheel Let him see how it feels Let him be me for a day Let's see how long till he caves Mentally I'm in the past Where I'm going nowhere fast I try so hard to change Maybe that's why I'm the same Well the driveway says hello It's saying welcome home But it's lying through its teeth Know that it's laughing at me I feel safer in the past Where I'm going nowhere fast I tried so hard to change Will I always be the same