Shadow

I have this fear that my past mistakes are coming to haunt me And can't shake the feeling that all my friends don't really want me I can't tell the difference between my intuition or my crippling anxiety People always leaving, I've got used to disappearing, maybe that'd be good for me 'Cause no one really gets me I've spent half a life pretending I formed meaningful connections I'm a master at deception I'm a shadow I'm a shadow I don't get attached anymore cause I've grown to learn the pattern The strangers I recognize are all of the ones that mattered Going to sleep haunted and waking up exhausted with thoughts racing through my head Some days I consider forgetting what's familiar and never getting out of bed No one really knows me Their opinions still control me I'm a victim of myself Think I really need some help I'm a shadow I'm a shadow I'm a shadow And you'd never know 'Cause I come and go I'm black and white like my thinking I was the place I was needing But I couldn't give myself peace and Had to go destroy every feeling Keep breathing Keep breathing Keep breathing Keep breathing Keep breathing I'm a shadow I'm a shadow I'm a shadow And you'd never know 'Cause I come and go