Borderline

I worry everyone around me I think they've noticed that I'm drowning I'm sorry that my pain is hard to watch I'm sorry that you're happy and I'm not Don't want my thoughts to turn to actions I told my mom it wouldn't happen I'm sorry that I've needed extra love I'm sorry that you miss the way I was You can say you love me a hundred times And I'll be overthinking ninety nine Lately I've been thinking I don't wanna die I just need someone to save my life Someone to save me from the borderline Know getting help is so important But still I feel so damn annoying Like I'm a big responsibility Like all my friends are feeling bad for me I'm like a heavy weight to carry And always breaking every boundary Will they still love me when the storm is over Will they still know me when they're getting older You can say you love me a hundred times And I'll be overthinking ninety nine Lately I've been thinking I don't wanna die I just need someone to save my life Someone to save me from the borderline I can't help the things that I'm saying I can't help the way that I'm breaking I can't help I won't be okay if You don't tell me that you don't hate me I can't live like this for much longer I can't live without getting stronger I can't live a lie that's just a million I am fines You can say you love me a hundred times And I'll be overthinking ninety nine Lately I've been thinking I don't wanna die I just need someone to save my life Someone to save me from the borderline