No One Knows (feat. Axyl)

Yeah, feels like I'm losing myself Feels like I'm losing myself Why am I dooming myself The fuck did I do to myself Should've been true to myself Dumb to think you would've helped Dumb to think you would've helped Feels like I'm brewing in Hell Feels like I'm brewing in Hell Can't be hard for you to tell, uh Stuck in a slump and I keep climbing up I just turned 25 feels like my time is up Feels like everyone's us and it's harder to trust And I can't shake the gut feeling I'm feeling like there's a knife in my gut And that's a gut feeling When you know deep down that the real person you love Is dooming you that's why I left No don't get upset when you see me 'cause I didn't wanna give you up And it's fucked to think for you I wasn't enough I just wanted your love but you wanted There's some nights I wanna go and get hella drunk So everything I was feeling could turn into numb Addicted to you, you're my favorite drug I buy your lies, you're my favorite plug Sometimes at night I will stare up above And wish under a star that I wasn't so dumb Why does it even matter, shit I didn't matter I built up my hope just for it to get shattered I'm always alone with the thoughts that I gather I flip through my thoughts it's a terrible pattern As if flipping through 'em will lead me to answers I try to move forward, but keep going backwards I hide all my pain behind smiles and laughter Where no one knows that I'm a wild disaster, fuck Give me all Oh, I wanna walk away I'm living like a ghost And no one ever knows See me fall Oh, I knew that I would break I'm living like a ghost But no one ever knows Always alone I wish someone could see me I lay in my bed staring up at the ceiling Talking to myself until I'm overthinking I'm home all alone no one knows that I'm weeping I swear my whole life is so fucking deceiving And I stand for broke with the checks I'm receiving My money can't buy the family I'm needing My money can't heal the agony I'm feeling I need someone to love to me, someone to hug me Someone to be there when my mind gets ugly I swear they really think my life is stunning Bro I come home to absolutely nothing I'm just a lonely guy loaded with money Nobody told me my days won't be sunny I'm bleeding on people who didn't cut me So when they leave me, they leave 'cause they bloody I have issues with women, I'm so co-depended I can't love myself, so I need her to give it And that's always where my self-worth is depicted And that's why I date women so narcissistic My mind is a mess and it's always conflicted And lately it's been hard to make a decision And it pains me that I finally admit it I've been suicidal and trying not to end it, fuck Give my all Oh, I wanna walk away I'm living like a ghost And no one ever knows See me fall Oh, I knew that I would break I'm living like a ghost But no one ever knows I'm saddened to think people that think that I'm reaching And that is the reason I feel what I'm feeling I may have some fame, but it's pain that I'm reaping I been praying to God asking Him for a healing Man, I need my mom, I need my dad I need the family we never had Our family's broken, I'm feeling hopeless Nobody notice I'm in a trance All I have is my daughter I stare in her eyes And I break down all I do is provide How can I give her a family life When it's just me and her every night, fuck Yo, this shit is too much I'm single-handedly killing my buzz I don't make music 'cause I'm in a rut And all of the stress of it is making me numb Why do I dream of a Grammy I'm winning When I don't have a family to celebrate with me Look there is no bullshit excuse that you could give me To make me feel like my damn life is worth living I swear loneliness is a cancer within me I'm searching for friends 'cause my family's missing This shit is exhausting, I'm thinking of quitting And maybe the end for me is a new beginning Give my all Oh, I wanna walk away I'm living like a ghost And no one ever knows See me fall Oh, I knew that I would break I'm living like a ghost But no one ever knows